Tonight I had one of the best talks with my new friend ever. God was totally up in our conversation! It all started because I wouldn't jaywalk at 2am while on my way back to my car. My friend wanted me to do it, but I waited for the green light (praise GOD for that on the literal and spiritual level! ahhhh God is so amazing!). We were talking and joking as we walked along, but he got increasingly more stuck on my not breaking the law. Of course I went on about authorities being in place for a reason and God appointing them and he would always come up with some ridiculous left-field scenario for me to hash out. But Holy Spirit lead me through and we really got into the thick stuff. The good stuff. The all-important stuff. THE GOSPEL.

So there was one point where he attempted to compare Jesus' suffering with that of soldiers in order to downplay the cross. I saw that he was clearly misinformed and began to explain what Jesus did and why He had to do it. There is so so so much to record, if I tried to write down everything, it would take forever and it wouldn't be so much more profitable, I don't think. I am mentioning it all right now, and that is enough. But man oh man, he was really bothered that I could be so black and white about everything. He kept saying he agreed 100% with me on some stuff, but not others, and I told him then he disagreed with me 100% because God is all or nothing and I live my life by His word so therefore if he disagrees with one part of my guide/standards for living, he disagrees with my whole life completely. He didn't like that either.

In the end, he said he loved me even though he didn't agree with me on everything. So I take that as a victory as well as the conversation being a victory in itself because the gospel was proclaimed. And there were some other drunk people walking by a lot and a few who were around the whole time, just down the street more, who may have been listening. So I pray that the good news reached their hearts too, and the conviction of the Holy Spirit!

Oh God, You are so good to let me work for you and to let me be used. I totally didn't foresee this tonight, but thanks so much! I love You. Oh, how I love YOU. You're my hero of heroes!!

{V} F

A fiction romance
I love this love story
That never seems to happen in my life
A fiction romance
All love and glory
That never seems to happen in my life

Dreams of love and dreams of pain
And dreams again again again
A gain which can be yours just by taking hold
Dreams that I can realize
Are quite contained within your eyes
Say fiction romance is not so old

A fiction romance
The love of the ages
That never seems to matter in my life
A fiction romance
On magazine pages
That never seems to feature in my life

Dreaming scheming unaware
That quite somewhere some unaware folk
Are not thinking bout what they have been told
Something strange is happening to
The way I see the world I view
That fiction romance is not sold
                                (Fiction Romance, Buzzcocks)

One day, I'll post the rest of that song and it'll be true. As of now, that part of the song plus Dreams by Descendents is pretty much the soundtrack of my life. Not necessarily right now, although last night was a bust for sure. I was supposed to meet up with some friends from work plus a different someone annnnnnnd party A were minors and didn't feel right being let in to a 21+ event (I didn't know!!) so I felt bad about that and then party B was not even there. Granted, he hadn't called me in almost 3 days, so I didn't know when he was planning to go, just that he had told me earlier that week to go cuz he was going to be there. I knew the photographer whose work was being shown at the event as well, so I went, but it was dead (it being only 10:30, but it did start at "7") and Erik was talking to a couple girls, so I didn't even get to say hi to him before I just gave up and called party B. I wish I hadn't cuz I was doing so well (not trying to make contact, that is). I ruined it by calling! Oh well, he was going somewhere else before he ended up at the event, he'd call me back in a little bit. Ah yes, I know those words. I'd like to have some faith in them, and thankfully, he has actually been true on a couple occasions, but I knew this time he couldn't help but not be. We all do it. "I'll call you later, ok?" Right.

So it was to Whataburger and home for me. I was so close to getting an apple pie with my number 8 and coke, but I thought that would be a little too self-indulgent. It's not like I got dumped or REALLY stood up or anything. I'm not even DATING anyone, good gravy. But I was disappointed. I had looked forward to Saturday all week.:(

So now, I am going to get myself a nice FAT Breve latte and a breakfast burrito. Then I'm going to go with Jesus to the Tea Gardens. I was supposed to have been taken about 5 years ago with AJ, but we all know how that ended up (never happened). Then party B and I were/maybe still are? going to go at some point, but that offer was made under the influence, soooo I can't put much stock into it. His memory is almost as bad as Peter Pan. Though he DOES fully remember my story of having peed myself at a swim meet when I was 5 (really, who can blame the man?). But yeah, anyway, today is my day with the Lord. We're gonna hang out and He's gonna comfort me and tell me all kinds of true stuff and I'm likely going to fight everything He says that is good about me cuz I still don't get that I am anything good. I don't think terribly about myself, but I definitely don't believe a lot of what He says, it seems a bit outlandish, but if He says it, it has to be true. Ugh. So frustrating.

Well, I'm mad at the world, I'm mad at myself, and I want my left eye to be healed already. Now I have a discharge and so I guess I must see an ophthalmologist. With some money that appears out of nowhere. Yeah. Good day.

So I guess I'm going to the movies tomorrow. It was going to be the tea gardens (and may still be? we'll see ;). I dunno what the heck I am doing, just going with it and being myself in the godliest ways possible. Staying on "my side" as much as I know how and just looking for opportunities to talk about Jesus and REAL LIFE problems and solutions (Jesus=solutions).

But yeah...movies. Interesting. hahahhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I'm a little giddy...

And tonight, apparently, I am to get a call at some point informing me when this dude is gonna be at Lamelight. Sweet.

At least I get all the Shirley Temples I want, for free.



Romans 12:21!!!


ps
ohmygoodnesss i think i've forgotten what he looks like and i think i just might be surprised again as to how cute he is....oops maybe i shouldn't have written that....oh well.

EEE!!!